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@@ -2,9 +2,9 @@ \secstar{Hospital Log 1} \vskip 2pt \begin{english} -On Monday, the 4\textsuperscript{th} of October, I got diagnosed with a case of Acute Lymphoblastic Luckhemia +On Monday, the 4\textsuperscript{th} of October, I got diagnosed with a case of Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (I didn't know it till Thursday). After 12 days, I find myself in one of the best places in - India for haematology related treatments and am sitting in a room worth Rupees 2k a day + India for hematology related treatments and am sitting in a room worth Rupees 2k a day with AC/TV/attached, bath/nurses on call and to top it, complete room service. The words and worries of others who love us and still not having the slightest idea of @@ -18,7 +18,7 @@ Everyone tells us not to feel depressed or sad or moody. Treatment is difficult, will turn your physiology upside down for sometime. It does cost a lot and some estimates put it at as much as 20 lakhs. But actually in mind, I am relieved. Why? May be it is because of the mentality of the scientist inside me who doesn't like unknown variables. I loved -it when I was diagnosed with Lukhemia. I at least have a diagnosis. I should say I +it when I was diagnosed with Leukemia. I at least have a diagnosis. I should say I felt like Dr.Gregory House in House M.D. To be frank, I didn't even stop to think whether it is life threatening or not, I was so happy that I had a diagnosable issue which was creating all that stupid or weird pains on my thighs, legs and my general loss of appetite. @@ -87,7 +87,7 @@ to understand where you were losing your ground. Interestingly enough, that does give a positive approach to the whole thing. I have nothing to be concerned about, except may be financials, Which I am quite sure is a waste of time. I can have -concerns on how bad my lukhemia is, but the again that is another waste of time once you decide +concerns on how bad my leukemia is, but the again that is another waste of time once you decide to go for treatment. Concern on how I would complete my MS will be my last since, if treatment works, I will get enough time to go for finishing the studies. If my ALL is life threatening and I am not responding well, there is no point in thinking about that. @@ -101,13 +101,13 @@ as it bothers everyone else. \subsection*{Question of "getting impatient about the details"} -Everyone wants to know what kind of lukhemia it is that I have. What I know is that it is just Acute -Lymphoblastic Lukhemia. Then they want to know whether it is life threatening or not. I do believe +Everyone wants to know what kind of leukemia it is that I have. What I know is that it is just Acute +Lymphoblastic Leukemia. Then they want to know whether it is life threatening or not. I do believe it is. Then next question is about the stage and I don't know which stage it is in. I don't really know -how lukhemias are staged. I guess they are not staged as per time, but according to the types. +how leukemia are staged. I guess they are not staged as per time, but according to the types. Some of them make genetic mutation and there is ALL with genetic mutation, which is somewhat dangerous. I do have one with a genetic mutation. But I am not an expert on what it is and -how it is. People think diagnosing lukhemia, its types, then understanding details is like +how it is. People think diagnosing leukemia, its types, then understanding details is like diagnosing a normal blunt wound or common cold. It is not. There is a larger scientific process involved and there is no point in getting impatient. But interestingly, only me, who is not supposed to understand it, understands this detail. @@ -133,8 +133,8 @@ my systems. There is no strict code of conduct when you work on situations like as you see results. The entire idea of protocol for 2 years will be the same. However, in the case of medicines, it might not be so. Only for generic cases does it remain the same. -I don't really know, but I think genetic mutations don't happen as per lamarkian principles but on darwin's -theories (there was a recent news on lamarkian effects of genes too, haven't read that in detail). +I don't really know, but I think genetic mutations don't happen as per Lamarkian principles but on Darwin's +theories (there was a recent news on Lamarkian effects of genes too, haven't read that in detail). So, if I had this problem, I guess it was there for the last 24 years (not sure, will ask my doctor to confirm). It is not a disease outside my body but a change in my system from the normal being. My body is built to have this mutation and it will be difficult to make it believe it is not. It @@ -146,7 +146,7 @@ word cure might not even be appropriate in case of cancer since we are not sure or breaking :) The way to obtaining results is always through continuous aggression of experiments and thoughts. Keeping -up to date is always a big part of it. Where I was lagging for sometime, now I am keeping upto date. +up to date is always a big part of it. Where I was lagging for sometime, now I am keeping up to date. As my professor pointed out a week before I left for treatment, I needed to increase my reading. These six or so months are a good chance for that. @@ -156,7 +156,7 @@ I understand is, you can never avoid it. Starting of a treatment doesn't guarant It just means that the beginning of the treatment is the same. It is easy for me to understand this since, datasets don't change for experiments. For entirely different experiments, we can use the same datasets, may be with different annotations or labels. There will be ambiguities and half answers, -like "it is ALL and no idea which type". People don't understand that diagnosing from lukhemia to +like "it is ALL and no idea which type". People don't understand that diagnosing from leukemia to the farthest details of its reach is a big process. There is no direct answer for patients' queries like "How bad am I?". It depends. Something can be predicted but not everything. The treatment is not straight forward and it is a little scary, but what to do, our whole life is like that. At least do it |